I have been an avowed atheist for two years. I had mustered up enough courage to abandon the Christian life after a long battle of shattering the doubts. I was not able to do so because of the fear instilled in me that I would go to hell or not be saved from the Judgment Day. At that time, I was still an utter simpleton believing in something beyond logic. After reading some said heretical books such as of Richard Dawkins’ God Delusion , Sam Harris’ A Letter to a Nation and An Atheist Manifesto , Christopher Hitchens’ God is Not Great , and George H. Smith’s Atheism: The Case Against God , I have been awoken to the reality as though the experience was a rude awakening. So, do not dare lecture me that I must be veering off my faith because faith is another argument of foolish illusion. By the same token, I have read one apologetic book to defend the sides of the Christianity . Still, the side of the atheists stands for me. For sure, I would be the subject to the brick brat here on Goodreads. Like or unlike this , it is neither here nor there.
This book deals with Leo Tolstoy’s midlife crisis in his spirituality and existentialism. Like what the atheists above experienced , Tolstoy came to the point that he questioned the religious teachings foisted upon him since he was still young. To find the answer, he went on a pilgrimage until he thought he had found the answer to his questions: He concluded that God does not exist. Still, not completely convinced , he had the persistent and obtrusive realization that there may be Supernatural unknown which can be called God. His experience was like backsliding to his delusion. In other words, Tolstoy ended up as agnostic- a question which has been a debate among religion and atheism apologists.
If Tolstoy had existential crisis in his 50’s , it may be ridiculous for others if I say that I have had come to it in my 20’s .Perhaps, information in the internet is now accessible to everyone.
Tolstoy, as a rule, is considered as the world’ best novelist . His writing for others is considered flawless. No doubt in this book, every sentence is beautifully written- the aftereffect of his emotional impact, an experience bears half resemblance to Gitanjali by Rabindranath Tagore and AntiChrist by Nitzsche. Probably the big credit is to its English translator.
As a bright philosopher put it that there are many kinds of truth since there are many kinds of beholders, you might misunderstand that Tolstoy’s’ intellectual hubris is conveyed in the sentences. In this book, Tolstoy said that people who believe in something beyond logic are not intellectual. Come to think of it. Do not be carried out by your deep-seated beliefs.
Rating : 4/ 5 stars for Leo Tolstoy’s beautiful sentences.